I hope I am not self sabotaging. Yesterday I had an interview, that I am pretty sure I blew because I was late. Not like 5-10 minutes, but an hour. I wasn't nervous about the interview, I was nervous about getting there. My instinct was to just take a cab. Lesson 843 on how I should trust my instincts.
Instead of reliving the whole ordeal, I will instead try to stay positive and list the things I learned.
1. Public transportation isn't as tricky as I believe it is.
2. If you get off at the wrong bus stop the smartest thing to do is stay at that bus stop and wait for another bus, not to try to walk to where the transfer stop was.
3. Trust instincts.
4. That interview and that job were not the only interview and only job in San Francisco.
5. Talk to the bus drivers, they are there to help you.
I allowed myself to mope last night and this morning and then got right back at it applying for jobs. I have an interview tomorrow and a hopeful promo this weekend and next week. Cross your fingers, I need that promo.
So, the job hunt is going, the apartment hunt is going.
On a happier note, Jami and I ventured out Tuesday night to Open Mic night at this awesome bar, Amnesia. It is a dark, sexy place. With a great bar that had a $3 micro brew special until 8 or 9, can't remember. Definitely crowded, standing room, but worth it. I laughed until I cried. I expect to go back next Tuesday as well.
Soon I'm going to start making dinner, some sort of kale, chard, bean, rice scramble. Hippie mash strikes again! I've been cooking almost every night and have been loving it.
I think the Joshua Tree weekend is off, its supposed to rain in the park and camping in the rain isn't exactly fun. I am still tempted to go down for Thanksgiving to Palm Springs, but if I get that Promo then I'll be working that entire week. I hope I get that Promo, it sounds awesome.
11.18.2010
11.14.2010
Head Full of Doubt, Road Full of Promise
In the Fall of 2007 I ventured into the Southern California desert to work on the land and find myself. I found myself, some of my closest friends, and some amazing great music. I attended the Joshua Tree Roots Music Festival and the last band on Sunday was the Avett BRothers; a band I hadn't heard of until that day. It was love at first sight, listen, feeling. I saw them in 2007, 2008, and 2009 but wasn't able to see them this year. Unless I can make it to Asheville, North Carolina for New Year's Eve I won't see them this year. But that's ok; there's always next year.
They are one of those bands I've listened to so much that I know the words without knowing I do and sometimes the right lyrics pop into my head at just the right situation. I've been having a great time until late last night, but after the help of a great friend, I feel in higher spirits today.
My goal for this coming week is to get an interview, if not a job. Tomorrow morning I am going to get up early, get dressed nicely, and go to temp agencies. We'll see how it goes. Tomorrow is also follow up day with places I've applied to, some in person, some by phone. Wish me luck.
Once I made Mixed Cd diaries and I think I should start that again. This song would be on it definitely.
Head Full of Doubt, Road Full of Promise by the Avett Brothers
There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what’s right
And it comes in black and it comes in white
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it
When nothing is owed or deserved or expected
And your life doesn’t change by the man that’s elected
If you’re loved by someone, you’re never rejected
Decide what to be and go be it
There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out
There’s a darkness upon you that’s flooded in light
And in the fine print they tell you what’s wrong and what’s right
And it flies by day and it flies by night
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it
There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out
There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out
There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what’s right
There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it
They are one of those bands I've listened to so much that I know the words without knowing I do and sometimes the right lyrics pop into my head at just the right situation. I've been having a great time until late last night, but after the help of a great friend, I feel in higher spirits today.
My goal for this coming week is to get an interview, if not a job. Tomorrow morning I am going to get up early, get dressed nicely, and go to temp agencies. We'll see how it goes. Tomorrow is also follow up day with places I've applied to, some in person, some by phone. Wish me luck.
Once I made Mixed Cd diaries and I think I should start that again. This song would be on it definitely.
Head Full of Doubt, Road Full of Promise by the Avett Brothers
There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what’s right
And it comes in black and it comes in white
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it
When nothing is owed or deserved or expected
And your life doesn’t change by the man that’s elected
If you’re loved by someone, you’re never rejected
Decide what to be and go be it
There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out
There’s a darkness upon you that’s flooded in light
And in the fine print they tell you what’s wrong and what’s right
And it flies by day and it flies by night
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it
There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out
There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out
There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what’s right
There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it
11.09.2010
The Great Sublet Hunt
I'll be honest. I'm 25 and a subletting virgin. I've rented apartments before, all during college but it was different. I had a car, I had a job (part time office work and being a student), and most importantly, student loans were paying for the apartment. I never had to worry about where rent was coming from, other added costs like utilities, food, etc. It was all covered. After college I lived with my Mom for a few months- rent free. Then, I did internships where housing was provided. After that, I traveled and worked, so housing was provided, even if it was just a tent. In between working I stayed on friend's couches, traveling the US. One of those such trips I ended up in San Francisco and fell in love with the city. So now, after not paying for rent for 3 years I'm back into that position.
Don't get me wrong, I'm more than happy to be trying to find somewhere of my own again. A room that is truly mine and eventually I'd like an apartment of my own again. But it can be a bit stressful. I'd forgotten about the monthly rent check and rent in San Francisco is not cheap. Living with other people is a necessity and right now all of the people I know here are living in places and not planning on moving anytime soon. Of course, there are ups and downs to living with people you don't know. Probably more ups than living with people you know. No worries about ruining a friendship that hasn't started. You meet for a day, maybe have coffee or a drink, then they show you the apartment. It sounds simple but yet not. So that's where the sublet part comes in, not renting but a temporary stay.
I've been searching on craigslist and sent out some emails today. Or course, there are one or two places that I want to stay in and another two or three I would take, but would not be thrilled about. I'm trying to take things day by day, but this whole process, both the trying to find somewhere to live, trying to find work, it can get in the way of actually enjoying the place I am. I can have fun once I have a job/place/etc. But I should be having fun now. But I can't, because the thoughts of finding a place, finding work, blah blah blah, they don't stop.
I had the thought to go for a walk but now the sky is gloomy and gray and I am waiting to hear raindrops. I am trying to stay positive, to believe that if I ask for help I will receive it. I put off going to the dance school today and now I'm wishing I hadn't. Tomorrow. I will do it tomorrow. I have no other choice.
Enough about subletting.
Jami and I are looking for a show to go to this weekend. Live music! Live music is definitely on the list of why I moved to the city. We walked around last night, just walking to explore. I haven't done much of that by myself except for a short walk yesterday but am looking forward to doing more of it soon.
I am hoping I can make a trip to Southern California soon, to Palm Springs/Joshua Tree to visit old friends. It is a little bit of a wish right now with the job hunt but we'll see.
A week in the city as of today and all is well.
Don't get me wrong, I'm more than happy to be trying to find somewhere of my own again. A room that is truly mine and eventually I'd like an apartment of my own again. But it can be a bit stressful. I'd forgotten about the monthly rent check and rent in San Francisco is not cheap. Living with other people is a necessity and right now all of the people I know here are living in places and not planning on moving anytime soon. Of course, there are ups and downs to living with people you don't know. Probably more ups than living with people you know. No worries about ruining a friendship that hasn't started. You meet for a day, maybe have coffee or a drink, then they show you the apartment. It sounds simple but yet not. So that's where the sublet part comes in, not renting but a temporary stay.
I've been searching on craigslist and sent out some emails today. Or course, there are one or two places that I want to stay in and another two or three I would take, but would not be thrilled about. I'm trying to take things day by day, but this whole process, both the trying to find somewhere to live, trying to find work, it can get in the way of actually enjoying the place I am. I can have fun once I have a job/place/etc. But I should be having fun now. But I can't, because the thoughts of finding a place, finding work, blah blah blah, they don't stop.
I had the thought to go for a walk but now the sky is gloomy and gray and I am waiting to hear raindrops. I am trying to stay positive, to believe that if I ask for help I will receive it. I put off going to the dance school today and now I'm wishing I hadn't. Tomorrow. I will do it tomorrow. I have no other choice.
Enough about subletting.
Jami and I are looking for a show to go to this weekend. Live music! Live music is definitely on the list of why I moved to the city. We walked around last night, just walking to explore. I haven't done much of that by myself except for a short walk yesterday but am looking forward to doing more of it soon.
I am hoping I can make a trip to Southern California soon, to Palm Springs/Joshua Tree to visit old friends. It is a little bit of a wish right now with the job hunt but we'll see.
A week in the city as of today and all is well.
11.07.2010
Early Sunday Morning
I woke up at about 4 am to the sound of rain. I've heard that winter in San Francisco is the "rainy season" which I am pretty much used to from the "rainy season" in Florida. We'll see how they differ. For one, I am happy I don't have to drive in the rain, but we'll see how happy I am with it with having to wait for buses in the rain. Most bus stops have covered areas, but all do not. I have an umbrella and a rain coat so I think I will survive.
Wow, that was a great starting paragraph: let me tell you about the weather.
Anyway, yesterday I worked at the Green Festival. It was a promo job I found from craigslist. I signed up to do Server/Greeter but ended up mostly doing food prep. I was the wrap master! It was a long day, 8 am to 7 pm and we were all pretty delirious towards the end. I worked with a great group of people, one or two I might actually hang out with again. We have plans to grab a drink after work tonight, which I can totally afford to do since I'm making money. Until later tonight. Ha! I might see if they need help with anything tomorrow as well. We're the Taste A Thon booth, making awesome vegan/vegetarian food samplings and we can take some food home in addition to our payment. It would turn out to be an awesome discount on the great brands, so I might do that. I'm bringing a big bag with me today. Yesterday was pretty awesome. I came home and pretty much immediately went to sleep.
The only thing I need to work on now is finding more permanent work. I've applied to a bunch of stuff over the past few weeks and hope I will at least get an interview sometime soon. I should hear back on Monday about the Clean Water Action job, I hope I can get that at least until I find something a little more permanent. I have looked a little bit into apartments, but I think I will hold off on that for a few more days.
I'm excited to call the city home and hope I can make it. I know I can, I just have to stay positive, save money, do what I can and everything will work out. I was hoping I'd be able to fall back asleep, I don't have to leave the house until 8:30ish but I don't think my body has quite adjusted to the time change. Exciting stuff, I know.
Wow, that was a great starting paragraph: let me tell you about the weather.
Anyway, yesterday I worked at the Green Festival. It was a promo job I found from craigslist. I signed up to do Server/Greeter but ended up mostly doing food prep. I was the wrap master! It was a long day, 8 am to 7 pm and we were all pretty delirious towards the end. I worked with a great group of people, one or two I might actually hang out with again. We have plans to grab a drink after work tonight, which I can totally afford to do since I'm making money. Until later tonight. Ha! I might see if they need help with anything tomorrow as well. We're the Taste A Thon booth, making awesome vegan/vegetarian food samplings and we can take some food home in addition to our payment. It would turn out to be an awesome discount on the great brands, so I might do that. I'm bringing a big bag with me today. Yesterday was pretty awesome. I came home and pretty much immediately went to sleep.
The only thing I need to work on now is finding more permanent work. I've applied to a bunch of stuff over the past few weeks and hope I will at least get an interview sometime soon. I should hear back on Monday about the Clean Water Action job, I hope I can get that at least until I find something a little more permanent. I have looked a little bit into apartments, but I think I will hold off on that for a few more days.
I'm excited to call the city home and hope I can make it. I know I can, I just have to stay positive, save money, do what I can and everything will work out. I was hoping I'd be able to fall back asleep, I don't have to leave the house until 8:30ish but I don't think my body has quite adjusted to the time change. Exciting stuff, I know.
11.03.2010
My first full day in San Francisco
Today I woke up pretty early, despite the sun not being up, despite the fact that I am in fact still very tired. My body, jet lagged and still running internally on Eastern Standard Time, thought it was time to wake up. So I did. I watched Great Expectations, a fitting tone for the start of a new journey. The apartment is cold but it is to be expected in November. I am excited for this new journey, even if I did struggle between my head (wanting to get up, get moving, explore the city) and my body (wanting to stay in bed, lounge around). So I compromised, I allowed myself the time to lounge and now I am ready to... do something. I am fortunate enough to have friends that are letting me stay with them for a few weeks. I am fortunate enough to have supportive friends and family. I am trying to stay positive.
At some point I will need to unpack, figure out what I actually have, what I'm lacking and start into the job hunt/apartment hunt. I will try to use this weekend wisely, job hunting the rest of the week (sending in resumes and cover letters, making a list of everywhere I've sent in something to and following up) and walking around, exploring. I have the entire weekend and I want to find something fun to do as well.
When I got in last night, Adam, Adam and Jami's friend, Hilda, and I went out to eat. We went to Herbivore - The Earthly Grill on Valencia. I had a very good sietan wrap, but I was very hungry so I'll have to try it again. It was pretty fairly priced, $7.50 for the wrap. Then we had ice cream at Xanath Ice Cream. They had a variety of non traditional flavors. I had the Saffron Ginger which was delicious, but after awhile a bit overwhelming in flavor and I only had one scoop. Not too badly priced for one scoop as well, I believe it was about 3 dollars. We came back to the apartment and I talked to Adam and Jami while they packed. They both left today, Adam to Alabama and New Orleans for a birthday celebration and Jami to Minnesota for a friend's wedding. I'm house sitting for them, which means I have the apartment to myself until Sunday evening. I think it'll be nice. I'll have the opportunity to get some alone time and concentrate on trying to find a job. It will be nice when they get back.
It feels as though I never really left, as though this is where I belong. I was having some pretty intense anxiety yesterday about the whole move, but now I'm glad I'm here. I just have to get a job! Or two, anything really.
I'm going to start updating regularly to chronicle this whole process: finding a job, finding a place, adjusting to life out here. I wish I had started back in Florida two weeks ago when I bought the plane ticket, but that would have just been filled with anxiety and I may have talked myself out of it. So here's to living in San Francisco!
At some point I will need to unpack, figure out what I actually have, what I'm lacking and start into the job hunt/apartment hunt. I will try to use this weekend wisely, job hunting the rest of the week (sending in resumes and cover letters, making a list of everywhere I've sent in something to and following up) and walking around, exploring. I have the entire weekend and I want to find something fun to do as well.
When I got in last night, Adam, Adam and Jami's friend, Hilda, and I went out to eat. We went to Herbivore - The Earthly Grill on Valencia. I had a very good sietan wrap, but I was very hungry so I'll have to try it again. It was pretty fairly priced, $7.50 for the wrap. Then we had ice cream at Xanath Ice Cream. They had a variety of non traditional flavors. I had the Saffron Ginger which was delicious, but after awhile a bit overwhelming in flavor and I only had one scoop. Not too badly priced for one scoop as well, I believe it was about 3 dollars. We came back to the apartment and I talked to Adam and Jami while they packed. They both left today, Adam to Alabama and New Orleans for a birthday celebration and Jami to Minnesota for a friend's wedding. I'm house sitting for them, which means I have the apartment to myself until Sunday evening. I think it'll be nice. I'll have the opportunity to get some alone time and concentrate on trying to find a job. It will be nice when they get back.
It feels as though I never really left, as though this is where I belong. I was having some pretty intense anxiety yesterday about the whole move, but now I'm glad I'm here. I just have to get a job! Or two, anything really.
I'm going to start updating regularly to chronicle this whole process: finding a job, finding a place, adjusting to life out here. I wish I had started back in Florida two weeks ago when I bought the plane ticket, but that would have just been filled with anxiety and I may have talked myself out of it. So here's to living in San Francisco!
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