So much can happen in a week. Or two months. Or a day, an hour even. My point here is that things change, dramatically, instantly. bam. I have gone through some highs and some lows in the past 2 months and now am trying to pull myself out of the latest low. This last low was good for me. It was very grounding (no pun intended) and I realized a lot about myself, my newly year older self. 24. 24 freaked out my best friend Karin but not me. I see myself on the verge of something else, something better, new.
Last night, after midnight festivities I was laying on a couch and overheard a conversation between a couple. It was endearing and very comforting, for a variety of reasons. The woman had been sitting inside when I got in and we had chatted a little earlier in the evening. She also made an instant connection with a friend that I brought. A former love interest. So it was interesting. anyway, she and her husband/boyfriend/partner (as I don't know their exact relationship) were talking about how she can be and introvert more than extrovert and how he sometimes forgot that. They were talking about balance and I could just feel their affection and mutual respect, love even, for each other. I could tell their desire to make being a couple work. A real couple, to be the balance and contrast that someone else wants and needs. It seems like work. To really work with someone that well. Work that I don't have to do right now, that I was happy to not have to deal with right now. While I may want a boyfriend, someone to love me, I know that despite all of my impatience one day I will find someone to balance and counteract and be exactly what I need. And that he will be just as willing to discuss balance at 1 a.m. as that man was.
So, here's to a New Year. The very scary 2009 full of uncertainty and possibilities.
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