I hope I'm not losing my best friend. It kind of feels that way right now. Things get complicated, by our own hands or by others but right now I am living off Mike's recent confession that he's in love with me. But he was on mushrooms, so maybe not everything he said he really feels. So I have no idea where we stand right now but I feel insecure and scared. I don't want to lose my best friend, but I feel as though it is already happening. As though he's slipping away because you can't very well talk to your best friend about being in love with them, or not and just being out of your head and letting it come out. So I feel distanced from him and that's not really what I need right now. So what do I do? Do I give him some space, let him clear out his head, resolve his head and heart discrepancies and just let him contact me when ready? Do I back off and just let it go? I think I need to just back away, but I always want my best friend. So how do I combine these two things? I have no idea. Either way, I'm going to not be sad today, or I'll try to at least.