The 2 H's

Hooking up and hanging out doesn't exactly constitute a relationship. In fact, these two events probably mean that you aren't in a relationship at all. Sure, these two things can be loads of fun but not when mixed with a girl (I still feel funny calling myself a woman, despite my 24 years and obvious womanliness) with a heart that is a little too open and a little too big. I'm always reminded of what a friend of mine said years ago... something along the lines of my heart being too big and that if I gave have away I might have a normal sized one.

Ah, the details keep rolling in. So I talked to her today, the "other woman" if you will, or the one who he just connects with more. Let's remember folks, I'm wonderful, but he found someone he connects with more, on more levels, etc. etc. Of course she didn't know. It was nice of her to call and want to talk to me about things. It doesn't help. Couldn't she be a complete bitch? Wouldn't that make things easier on me? After all, I am just an intern, so I'll be leaving soon enough. It is much easier to be childish and petty at times like these then to except the facts. That things aren't always black and white. That although I over reacted, I am not the ass here. He is. Fact: I will be okay.

People say not to hook up with/get involved with anyone from work. But sure, you think you're the exception to that rule. No. Nope. Not at all. So really, this advice is warranted. This advice, is probably some of the most truthful and honest anyone can ever impact. Because when things don't work out you still have to see that person at the place where you are 10 hours a day Monday through Thursday. When things don't work out and you live in a small town and only mainly hang out with people from work... well everyone knows. Small towns = loose lips. Its like the game of telephone you play as a kid, but its worse because this is your life, not something silly about hats and peanut butter? Where did peanut butter get into the story?

My, some learning experiences have to come with horrible prices. I don't think there is anything else that will build on top of this short story in the novel of my life. Besides the getting over, the getting over all of this that I thought I got over but didn't really because key factors, i.e. key players weren't around. So this will be a very interesting week at work.

But! There is a silver lining (as there always are) very soon... probably on Friday I will have a phone interview for a Summer crew leader position. Cross your fingers, eyes, toes, and knees that it goes well and I get a second interview. I am also keeping my options open and working on a resume to apply for some other jobs, Seasonal positions at various spots in the West.

And, my god, do I have some awesome friends. I really don't know what I'd do without them.