Sometimes I think we are all just looking for an escape. An escape from the mundane, the ordinary, the, dare I say, boring. We want something new, despite the negative feelings towards change. But change can be a good thing and usually is, especially when you find yourself stuck in cycles that you want nothing more than to get out of.
Last night I hung out/drank with the old crew. And after awhile, I think I realize why I tried to make Tom into something more than he was. Because I am tired, I'm tired of the complaining, the bitching, the indecisiveness and then the resistance when a solution is suggested. I'm tired of the bitchiness, the cattiness, I'm tired of it all. I just want laid back friends, who aren't into all of this pointless drama bullshit. And that's why I tried to make Tom into so much, because he was drama free.
But of course... I brought the drama to him.
On Tuesday I have a phone interview for one of the Americorps positions I applied for. I hope it goes well. I need change in a major way.
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